Why you gotta be so fuckin' mean?
Said it's not your scene, could you just leave me
Alone with my friends, alone with my thoughts?
But I often have thoughts that can't be shared and
If you really cared about my health, about my heart
Then you would start keeping track of all the times
You said that you were fine but really weren't
It's just like back in time, when you were five
The doctor said you would be fine
But it still hurt, and I'm still sure
It was just a little trick to make us feel alright

Now I smell like smoke and I feel like shit
Probably couldn't hurt if I took a dip
Maybe then I'll finally be as clean as I was back at 18

'Cause I'm not getting any younger
My lungs get blacker every day
If I were to grow a beard, stop drinking beer
I fear you might not love me
Enough to make you stay
I really hope you'll stay

I know I said that it's not your problem
I know I said that it's not your care
This is a problem that can't get fixed with three drunk texts and one wet kiss
I know I said that it's not your problem
I know I said that it's not your care
This is a problem that can't get fixed with three drunk texts and one wet kiss

'Cause I'm not getting any younger
My lungs get blacker every day
If I were to grow a beard, stop drinking beer
I fear you might not love me
Enough to make you stay
To make you stay
To make you stay
To make you stay
To make you stay

I'm getting kind of tired of all the empty picture frames
Still feels like I'm not quite moved in yet

I'm getting kind of tired of facing all my fears
One time, it's hard to believe that I'll be fine one day

I don't get too far before I waver off
Take as much as I can before I get caught

I'm getting so tired of coughing out my lungs
And sticking out my tongue to catch the breath you stole the day you
Told me this was love and healed me with your hugs
And made me feel this might just not be doomed to fail so hard

I don't get too far before I waver off
Take as much as I can before I get caught
I'm not scared of dying, I'm just overwhelmed
I love you more than I've ever loved myself

I don't expect anything, can't get my hopes up too far
Don't text me just to pick up, call just to cut me off
I'm not scared of dying
I'm just overwhelmed
I love you more than I've ever loved myself

And it makes me kind of glad that you think
About me late at night when you can't sleep
And I'm sorry that you're sad, but I can't do anything for you
Anymore